Picking Up the Pieces

Seven months ago, my whole life changed.

In the midst of finals week, a close family member got into a fatal car accident, shaking my whole world. It was very hard to focus on school when I knew everyone I loved was back home hurting. I quickly had to rearrange exams, cram for them, and make it home as soon as I could.

On top of all of this, my relationship fell apart, too. The break-up took an incredible toll on me. After two years, not only did I lose my boyfriend but I lost my best friend, which was the hardest part. When I got home from school, I stayed in bed most days, I did not eat, and I did not want to talk to anyone. I felt numb, I felt like everything I thought I knew was a lie, and I did not know how to cope with it.

I kept replaying conversations and situations in my head trying to figure out what I did wrong. I tortured myself for weeks, because at that point I was still so confused as to what was going on and why. I hit rock bottom, picked up some not-so-great habits, and made a few bad choices. It took some time, to assess and accept what happened, and to heal. Each day I continue to take steps to take care of myself and to keep moving forward.

One of the biggest things I learned was that not everyone who comes into your life is meant to stay. Sometimes people are placed in your life to teach you lessons, and to help you get through life's obstacles for that particular period of time. I learned that although it felt like my world was ending, it was truly just the beginning.

Now, I am focused on an exciting new internship, which I absolutely love. Working in the city has been so much fun and super rewarding. I am about to enter my senior year of college which is insane. It went by so fast! I have been traveling a lot, experiencing new things, and truly just living my best life.

I owed it to myself to write this. This blog is like my journal - its therapeutic to me. This post lingered in my drafts for months, because I was never fully ready to share. But I know I am not alone, and that other people have gone similar situations, and much worse.

To everyone who has stood by me throughout this rocky journey, I am wholeheartedly grateful for your love and support. And to everyone who took the time to read this, thank you.

Until next time...

“Rock bottom became the solid foundation on which I rebuilt my life.” ― J.K. Rowling